Posted by: Becca on: November 19, 2009
I cycle through depressive states regarding writing. Regarding the point of it. I always come back to this- the point of it is for me to cope. I know that. (but it doesn’t change my moodiness about the whole thing) It is, for as long as I remember, how I cope. The person I talk [...]
Posted by: Becca on: October 28, 2009
To begin, I will begin at the beginning. The beginning of my very first diary, at least. It’s purple, with pink ballet slippers and red roses with green stems all over it. The inside covers are pink, the pages- lined and white, with a place for the date at the top. There’s a little silk [...]
Posted by: Becca on: October 19, 2009
Sometimes, even when I don’t think I’m praying, God likes to jump into my conversations with myself. Kind of like the person standing behind you in line while you’re talking to whomever you’re with (loudly enough for everyone to hear), who just goes ahead and tosses in a passing comment like they were part of [...]
Posted by: Becca on: October 9, 2009
Wow, I am really irritated at the way I just had a post deleted while I was working on it. Really really irritated.
So this is going to be shorter and less involved. Because I’m irritated.
I had a dream last night. I was outdoors with a group of people I knew but couldn’t see and someone [...]
Posted by: Becca on: October 2, 2009
I hear the most from God when I am most extremely broken. The broken where you aren’t even angry, aren’t questioning, aren’t trying, aren’t asking, aren’t doing anything but being broken. But that makes sense, since that kind of broken is so extremely open.
Not that I don’t hear from God otherwise, but perhaps I am [...]
Posted by: Becca on: August 6, 2009
Feminism is…?
Rebecca West: I myself have never been able to find out precisely what feminism is: I only know that people call me a feminist whenever I express sentiments that differentiate me from a doormat, or a prostitute.
[Feminism is] a socialist, anti-family, political movement that encourages women to leave their husbands, kill their children, practice [...]
Posted by: Becca on: August 6, 2009
There has always been this one passage in the Bible that I just can not be okay with. More than that, something within me rages at the words in defiance every single time I hear them. Nothing fills me with righteous indignation more.
So, here we go: “Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto [...]
Posted by: Becca on: August 3, 2009
This is what I wrote down, word for word, during a sermon. That’s why it may or may not make sense. I just wanted it recorded, mainly for myself, (but also for anyone who likes to read my streams of consciousness…:) there’s some things I want to revisit.
Magnification, magnificence.
Clear eyes:
all the colors
and
movements
of light.
Vessel. Love Life, [...]
Posted by: Becca on: July 31, 2009
Through various first hand sources, I have gathered entertaining information regarding the latest ministry efforts of two sister churches. Well, to be honest, they aren’t sister churches, they are a split off of one church, but they should be (could be!) sister churches, so I, because I can, will refer to them as such. I [...]
I wish the nights were longer. I have so much to say.
I hate never being able to go home…that home is gone. I just want to sit in the barn with that sweet hay smell, that old worn wood. I just want to walk to the creek, in the valley, through the trees…I just want [...]
