Posted by: Becca on: October 30, 2008
I’m a mediator. I have been for as long as I remember. I don’t usually take sides wholeheartedly. When I take a side or make a decision, it’s usually with conditions or adjustments. I like to combine theories, techniques, theologies, stances, viewpoints, genres, subcultures. I like to identify the similarities that run through them because [...]
Posted by: Becca on: October 28, 2008
Sometimes I feel like every little act of “normal” life is a treason against my self. And that the world moves too fast for me and demands too much. That I am suffocated, drowning, completely incongruent. That I am trying to distort myself to fit, to catch on and catch up. But I just can’t. [...]
Posted by: Becca on: October 27, 2008
Outwitted
by Edwin Markham
He drew a circle that shut me out —
Heretic, rebel, a thing to flout.
But Love and I had the wit to win:
We drew a circle that took him in!
Posted by: Becca on: October 22, 2008
Everyday, there’s this question in the air – what part of my life will get the shaft today? Finances, housekeeping, motherhood, work – the paperwork, work – the people, school, husband, me (mind, body, spirit, etc), friends, extended family, my writing/creativity…? Most often, it’s more than one thing, though it’s never everything and never nothing.
This [...]
Posted by: Becca on: October 16, 2008
There’s this old graveyard I like to go to sometimes, off of a country road. There are only a few epitaphs I can make out completely and this one is my favorite:
The strife is o’er, the battle done, the victory of life is won. The song of triumph has begun!
It’s so focused on the good [...]
Posted by: Becca on: October 15, 2008
Months ago, a local pastor and an assistant came door to door in the neighborhood doing a survey regarding the local church. The last thing he asked was “If you could say anything you wanted to the local church, what would it be?” Woah. Loaded question to ask someone like me. I said nothing, because [...]
Posted by: Becca on: October 13, 2008
I don’t know if it matters, what angle you’re coming from, something about pictures like that, pictures that say “We’re a family” with traditions and shared life experiences, holidays, trips…life…
no one tells you (how could they) when you ache for those things as a little child that those things can warm you up and move [...]
Posted by: Becca on: October 12, 2008
Friday morning, 7:52am, mother in law calls to say she will be there to pick up Natalie early and forgot to tell Jason to tell me (bad mother in law!)
I then throw random pre-packaged snacks, some of which I’m not even sure she will eat into Natalie’s lunch box just as the door bell [...]
Posted by: Becca on: October 11, 2008
I told my supervisor today to tell me that my notes are due by the end of day thursday instead of 12pm friday because I only get them in by deadline about 30% of the time (but usually before 3). I think it will work. I am telling myself over and over that they are [...]
Posted by: Becca on: October 10, 2008
Dear God,
I’M TIRED. REALLY REALLY FALL APART TIRED. You know this already, but I just wanted it straight from my mouth to your ears. I’m tired. I’m tired of knots in my stomach and crying till I think I’ll throw up. I’m tired of holding it together, me and everyone else and the life between [...]
