Posted by: Becca on: September 30, 2008
I was thinking, when things don’t go as expected or wanted or hoped, we often become the “victim” of our life’s circumstances. This is dangerous. It’s fine to say, “This sucks. I’m hurt, pissed, confused, scared.”..etc. Because you are those things and that’s okay. It’s never not okay to feel how you feel.
And often, the [...]
Today is just a day. There will be another one tomorrow. And if not, all the things that are so worrisome today, won’t matter anymore.
Posted by: Becca on: September 26, 2008
Straight out of various (paper) journal entries:
Sometimes, thinking about the next day gives me a headache and I just don’t know if I can do it all over again. It is too hard.
Hot water/on my knees
my favorite question is why. I want to understand
Patios and rays of light/what you’re seeking/is what you find
There is such [...]
Sometimes, all of the sudden, everything can get so hard. Breathing, moving. So obviously draining. It’s falling to the ground in the shower, hot water falling down your face, into your mouth. It’s getting up and walking, or typing one more thing. It’s sitting, waiting to see how long you can go without moving. It’s [...]
Posted by: Becca on: September 26, 2008
I don’t think it’s so much that dark things like sadness and anger and lonliness and desperate need creep into us when we are weak or unaware as it is that they are always there, along with the the colorful things: joy, love, hope, peace, fulfillment.
Like all these things are woven parts of us and [...]
Posted by: Becca on: September 26, 2008
We are given, throughout life, so many prescriptions, equations, and instruction manuals for how to live life and get what we want out of it. We come to think that this plus this equals that without fail. We develop a false sense of control about our lives and our abilities to control them based on [...]
Posted by: Becca on: September 26, 2008
- I need a lot of time alone. At least two hours at the begining and end of each day. Preferrably more at the end (maybe 3 or 4)
- If you keep saving people, being their “only thing” holding them up or together, then you are robbing them of the ability and opportunity to develop [...]
Posted by: Becca on: September 25, 2008
-Is resistance to change just innate? The moment we realize that it’s happening, we tighten up, begin voicing objections, even when it’s something we’ve asked for, tried to get. Is it fear of the unknown, even the sought after unknown? Because even when we don’t want to be where we are, we are where we [...]
Posted by: Becca on: September 19, 2008
Do you remember?
This is where we sat when you got back from ROTC camp. We sat on top of the picnic tables eating Little Caesar pizza. You had bought me a navy blue Nautica shirt that was too big but you said there weren’t any smaller sizes at the store on base.
Did [...]
Posted by: Becca on: September 17, 2008
I am with you, all day, daughter.
Hold fast daughter, hold fast. You are about to come full circle. You are encompassed by God. What importance is your light without your darkness? What value is your faith without your fear?
My mother in law said today, coming in the door “Life a little hectic?” I said “Not [...]
